I wake up to a Sunday morning that is quieter than usual. I confess it is a change that I find very pleasant. My sleep was restful, broken once by the chill in the air in the early morning and the sensation of fog surrounding our house. My dreams were random but connected by a coherent theme of fun and laughter playing childhood games like hide and seek. Our entire world can use dreams these days to help us create our vision for peace and justice. Breathe in and out as you prepare to live another good day.
After many months of procrastination, I finally contacted our internet provider last week to help me re-configure my 2009 computer so that I could update work on various projects. The young man was very helpful and professional but we were not successful. He politely suggested once or twice that my computer might be obsolete! Despite the fact that I had often seen the message from Microsoft that I needed to do a software up-date years ago, I somehow refused to take it seriously. I honestly don’t know why I thought my computer would be free from these adjustments.
The forever-young part of me, that child refusing to give up, proceeded to bring this vintage model to my trusted local technician who has had lots of time with it over the last decade. I explained what I was seeking and provided him with what I thought could be done. He listened without interrupting. He turned the computer on its side, opened and closed it. He quietly informed me that it was indeed “extinct”, that nothing I wanted was possible. When he saw my disheartened expression, he suggested getting a quote for a new one. I told him I would think it over and let him know soon.
On my way home, I thought about the complex reasons for my resistance in replacing this old machine. A big part of it has to do with nostalgia. Some of it has to do with the time I must invest in the learning curve a new gadget will require regardless of the great new experiences that await me! Mostly, though, I think I just need a little more time to psychologically separate me from the computer. My computer is obsolete, no longer supported or capable of complex operations. I have entered the phase of life where I can benefit from investing in the learning curve. I do not need to stay stuck in the past!
Have a wonderful day and a terrific week, Marietta